First Step To change

It has been more than an year now since i have been missing. Have been experiencing Life. I must say that i have learnt a lot and have become even more awesome!

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Jan Traid

Okay, okay! I know the images & all is too much. But i really feel like this!

I have done Reiki 1 & 2, Magnified healing -1 and practiced tarot for this whole year. i was even meditating. I was meditating for an hour continuously everyday. My life started healing beautifully. But then i became lazy & i stopped practicing after a few months (this habit is chasing me since my childhood! Errrrrrr!!!!!)

This year in the mid of January, my life fell apart. It was dis functioning from quiet sometime but i was just ignoring it all the way. I was just being human. We don't move our lazy bums to change things up a bit till the pain of the situation, doesn't get greater then the pleasure or happiness of the situation.

So, after spending almost 5 months crying, whining & beating up myself about everything which happened or didn't happen, i started healing myself & all the issues with Reiki once again. It has been a week now & i would like to tell you, i have already started feeling much better.

It's all about finding that inner space where you feel good about your own self. So here i am, back again, with more things to share. I have a lot of things to say right now. But i have just decided to put up with the mystery. Well, you can say it's my USP. 
Now, i am going to share my awesomeness with you too. But it would be just one thing at a time.

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Olivier Fahrni

So here is today's lesson-

If you feel terrible about the things which are going on in your life, just cry about it. But please don't beat yourself up. It really doesn't help. But do cry your eyes out about it. Keep crying about it. Sit with your sorrow. Feel it. Don't run away from it. Be with your sad depressed self. Cry, cry & cry till the time you can cry no more.

What hurts you, blesses you. Darkness is your candle. ~ Rumi

Now, I am not telling you something which i have invented. It is basically the Zen way of dealing with emotions. It's what i have learnt from my teacher. But just knowing it & actually practicing makes all the difference. This has helped me come out of my misery. Besides that, I have also heard someone saying, " Tears are the first Signs of healing." It's completely okay if you cry. I would consider a person abnormal if he/she doesn't cry. It's something normal. If you have a huge issue about tears, then at least just let yourself realize that you are happy or angry or disappointed or stressed about something. You cannot change your situation if you don't accept the fact that it is there. So first just drop the  'I don't care' attitude & shun the tough mask which you wear all the time to show the world. As my teacher says it, " you just cannot stuff things in the closet, shut it up & expect it to disappear." That is just not going to happen my dear. you have to pick up the mess, and you have to find a way to deal with it. Only you can. no one else can do that for you. You can seek help from people around you, but the work has to be done by you and only you & you you you you....

Now enough of poking you guys.
Just remember one thing for now-

Acceptance is the first step to change. The rest will follow.

This is what i have learnt. Now this is just the beginning. I have a lot more coming up.
If you also have experienced same things or have any other views, feel free to comment. I would be glad to hear what you have to say.
Stay tuned for more ways to create awesomeness in your life......
And i am not going to disappear again. ;)
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